ah well block leave is over. and now i'll be starting on my 'Specialist' journey. hopefully it'll be a new start for me, cos the last few weeks have been very sianz. since after SITest, i dunno but maybe it has been too slack, making me feel sianz and having 2nd thoughts about army, which is probably why i didnt make it to OCS.

dealing with ur personal problems and army at the same time is not easy...maybe OCS would better preoccupy me so that i dun think too much or maybe it would make it worse since training is tougher. whatever im now in SCS leading a slacker life so i'll just try to be the happiest person i can be.

pathetic how 1 person can screw up ur life.